sucky

man. do i suck or what? i went off key, off pitch and off so many things today. and it had to happen at this stage. bloody fish lah. i feel so demoralised. it's like it was my worst ever rendition of reflection. sheesh. and yes, i cried right after i sang. the horror of my voice was just too much for me to handle. but then again, it's my fault for not practising. stupid idiotic me. i hate myself. thank goodness there weren't many of my friends there. i would have made a complete fool of myself, which i already did in front of the 5 who supported me. i suck. perhaps i need to stay off singing for a while. i have to get over this tragedy soon or else i will loose the interest to ever sing again.

right after the first round, the 5 of us went to heeren to window shop. i just wanted to get myself out of the room cause i was way too embarassed. there, i managed to avoid thinking on the blunder and focusing my attention instead on shoes. thank heavens. went back to the room for the results after our meal and as i had predicted, i did not make it to the finals. it was so predictable. i didn't even want to listen in the first place. but still, i must show some sportsmanship. i don't want to be known as the spoiler.

i would like to thank all those who came and support me; merissa, hama, geraldine, kar kei, zhi min, pei ling, judith and sebastian. thank you guys. it really means a lot to me. and to those who weren't there but still sent their well wishes through smses; cheng teng, shu chen, jillene, sharini and ashita. thank you. you guys rock!!

sick

didn't go to school today. i had fever last night and the headache is still killing me right now. i went to the doctor's this morning and she gave me a 2 days' MC. woo hoo. she asked me all sorts of questions, explaining that she wants to know my background since it was my first visit. she was suprised when i said that i'm the youngest of 5 and am studying in jc level. she must have thought that big families cannot produce smart children. she even asked me whether there was any chance of me being pregnant after i told her that my period is late. i was like, no. she totally caught me off-guard. sheesh.

oh man. the cough's getting worse and my head's spinning like it's nobody's business. how in the world can i be fit for this saturday's competition when i can barely see straight. i hope the drugs she prescribed work fast. cause if not, i will need a miracle to get well in time.

another important thing. i totally forgot to mention this earlier. i'm an overnight fan of freddie mercury. you know, the lead singer of queen, the ultimate rock band. i totally dig his vocals and his life story. bohemian rhapsody's been playing on my computer over and over again. superb!!

oh yeah, kurt cobain's got an interesting life story too. a very sympathising one. you guys should read up on these 2 dead rockers. they may no longer be alive but their spirit lives on........

tried blogging yesterday but the stupid server didn't even allow me to login. sheesh. couldn't even check my mail. dunno why. maybe my computer is angry with me for not giving it a chance to take a breather. so many stories to tell. well, kinda.

got THE call i've been waiting for. jaime from the rhapsody competition called me to say that i made it through to the next round. soo exciting. however, it'll be like this saturday. that is like super soon. first thing i did was smsing the peeps and telling them to come cause there would be a voting thing. if i heard right, it constitutes to 20% of the overall score. that's a lot baby. i ain't gonna risk not making it through just because i didn't have enough supporters. smsed the poeple i know to bring along their own peeps to come and vote. very unashamed of me but who cares. however, they would have to pay $2 to enter and qualify for a vote. if i manage to get at least 20 people on my side by saturday, i'll be delirious.

early this morning, i panicked as i was supposed to come up with my choice of song by tommorrow and it has to be in kbox's database of songs. isn't that just stupid. i can easily say that they won't have most of my preferred songs since they seem to cater more to the chinese community. i even thought of going to kbox right after school just to check out their list of songs. so bodoh. merissa was prepared to follow me if i had really gone there. then, she said from her previous outing at kbox, she mentioned a list of english songs that she could remember. and boy, my eyes lit up the moment she mentioned relection. you know, the one by christina aguilera, ahem ahem. and then i was like, i wanna sing that. so basically today's trip to kbox was cancelled and i have settled with my song for this saturday.

ayin and shidah got went to register their marriage at the romm this afternoon. my parents were there as well. so suay of me to miss it due to school. sheesh.

so people, read my plea. if you're free this saturday, do come down to support me and vote for me at kbox cineleisure. i'll be there from around 12 to 5. plus, there would be a $2 charge for entry and vote per person.

please. support your fellow homosapien.

written report workshop

this morning was one that started out of sorts, well before the workshop started. a whole group of us were supposed to meet at 8 at woodlands mrt station. being the idiot that i've always been, i reached the venue at bloody 7.45. it's still early, i thought. then i started seeing heaps and heaps of innovians coming from the barrier thing, none of which were THE people. smsed jude, asking where she was then. at approximately 7.55, her reply was "i'm still sleeping. starts at 9.30 what." sensing that something was amiss, i replied "what nonsense? 8.30 lah you crap!" that must have immediately rang her alarm bells.

still, uncertain,i asked hama what the reporting time was. it was 9, she said. i replied, "then i come so early for what?!" she sent an apology stating that she'll tell me her side of the story on being late. justification finally brewed as pei chi soon arrived, not quite on time though. she was about 5 mins late but she's the least possible person i would expect to be one of the first to arrive. waited and waited until finally, princess hama came (no pun intended). waited a while more and then came shradha and her guy friend. then came jude with her hair untied as usual. sheesh. waited and waited for ct cause she did not answer our calls or reply our smses. we finally gave up and decided to head for the sports school as we were running awfully late.

headed to the taxi stand and started begging for mercy at the taxi drivers. very malu, i know. there were 6 of us, trying to squeeze into one 4 -adults cab. and i have a big ass, mind you. jude hitched a hike with an unknown group of innovians who were heading to the sports school as well. and she did not have to pay a single cent!! the remaining five of us were still negotiating with different taxi drivers to send us to a place which is just 5 mins away by car. still unsuccessful, we decided to split into 2, with pei chi and me in a cab and the other 3 in another. poor jude. she had to swallow her pride to ask for a free ride. i wouldn't be able to do such a thing. i applaude you, girl. we reached the sports school at 9.05 thinking that we were awfully late. an announcement came, saying that we were on time as repoting time was actually 9.30. miscommunication sucks, big time.

that's about how i started the morning. the workshop was okay, though a tad too boring for my style of studying. and bern, rina and wid were sooo funny, laughing and joking and all, that despite the horrible beginning, it ended on a rather high note.

today was an utterly waste of time. going to school that is. let me repeat to make sure that everyone got the message loud and clear. innova jc is the only school in the entire nation to have a full day, instead of the average half-day thing that ALL the other schools got. this is what i would call daylight robbery of our rights as students. no fair. it's not our fault that the OAC was held last week and thus resulting in major loss of curriculum time. sheesh man.

the celebrations were more sombre than patriotic. we sang the usual songs and had a bit of fun when the arts classes with a couple of sporting science people chanting "half day, half day!! *clap clap* half day, half day!! *clap clap*"

i am down to my last two choices. it's either can't fight the moonlight or i need you, both by leann rimes, for the rhapsody auditions. i'm pretty nervous. it's an inter-tertiary thing. so i'm rather edgy coming to this saturday. i'll be meeting cailin (one of the organising members) this wednesday to pass her the registration form and the $8 fee. i hope i'll make an impact on the judges. and i really really really really wish there would be no likes of bryan (beatty) or edwin (of innova) to scare the shit out of me. please Allah, let it be a smooth-sailing thing.

i am so embarrassed. i can't take the pai-seh ness, man. stupid kenneth. sheesh. let's just leave it at that, okay.

camp was fun. i was pretty much enthusiastic when it came to the cheering part but obviously, my class kinda dislike cheering. but other than that, i think we quite bonded with each other.

i tried several obstacle courses but failed in all. hahaha. a glaring sign of my un-atheleticity. i tried absailing, balancing on a rope, rock climbing but fell in all before i could complete them. very fun to fall but painful to watch the belayers struggle to support my hefty weight.

the toilet was horrendous and so was the food. they just suck. the bed was not as bad.

campfire rocks big time!! the emcees (rafidah & ian) were spontaneous and the atmosphere was exhilirating! the crowd was responsive as well. couldn't have been a better ending. i really thought that A23's performance with S12 was awesome and addictive that it got the crowds to join us. wonderful, brilliant and a job well done by ODAC.

i know tis a tad too late but ian somerhalder is super hot!!! it's beyond words. just look. *drool*